I’m comfortably seated in my dark grey SUV driving down a windy rural road, my dogs Jackson and Jeffrey in the backseat. The road is empty of other cars and as I continue, it becomes increasingly narrow until it is only a small path covered with a thin layer of snow. I continue driving. The path rises revealing to my left a panoramic view of rolling green fields and woodlands. I come to a structure with a glass door blocking the road. It’s locked and I can go no further.
I have no idea where I am. I stop and enter a large colonial house; no one is home. I find myself in a small kitchen. There is a sink with dirty white dishes, a small round table with 2 chairs, a bed squeezed tightly into a tiny alcove, a wood stove at the foot of the bed, and behind the woodstove, a toilet and laundry. It’s evident that while the house has multiple floors and many rooms, the owner is living only in this single small space. To conserve heat, I wonder. It’s warm and cozy. I notice scattered piles of kitty litter and kitty poop on the floor. I want to use the toilet but it’s piled high with folded laundry.
I had this dream over the weekend when the planets Jupiter, Saturn, and Mercury were conjunct in the sign of Aquarius. Imagine this planetary arrangement as a meeting of 3 individuals. Jupiter is advocating for expansion, growth, becoming larger and Saturn, reluctant to leave the cozy safety of its present confines is making the case for staying small. Some distance from this meeting, the planet Uranus (in the earth sign Taurus) is texting messages to Saturn and Jupiter demanding greater freedom, encouraging a revolution. Mercury is listening to their conversation, ready to bring a message from them to me. That this conference is taking place in Aquarius means it is focused on being of service to others and contributing to a better future.
I understand—this dream is Mercury’s message.
Everything in my dream is an aspect of me. The road I was traveling represents my life path—“I am in the driver’s seat” of my own life. The absence of other cars and the narrowing of the road suggest I am being asked to go it alone, to individuate, step out from the group, be my unique self. Driving an SUV, I am equipped to safely make my way on the “road less traveled.” The glass door blocking my way is comparable to a glass ceiling. It can and needs to be shattered.
The house, while I think it’s someone else’s, is mine. It represents my life. I’m the one choosing to live in a small portion of the big house (big life). While it feels cozy and safe, it’s also very confining, stuffy, and cluttered. The bed, small and tightly bounded by 3 walls suggests I am limiting my dreams, keeping them within snug boundaries. The fire in the stove is meager, giving little light or warmth. I’m keeping the fires of my passion dampered down.
The dream is awakening questions:
What glass door (aka limiting belief) am I allowing to block my way?
Why am I choosing to live such a small version of myself?
Why am I limiting my dreams?
Why am I keeping the fire within me dampered back?
And why am I sh…pooping on my own life?
In one of my favorite quotes, Marianne Williamson admonishes us, “Your playing small does not serve the world.” This dream is revealing the truth of my smallness and urging me to step into bigness. I am being called to answer these probing questions and take the affirmative actions.
Ask yourself:
What larger version of myself am I being called to live?
What glass door do I need to break through?
What are my BIG dreams?
What passion is burning in me? What difference do I want to make and for whom?
The planets are speaking to you from within you. Be free, be big, be you!!
The world needs all of us to shine our lights brightly and without restriction because “…as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” (Marianne Williamson) And then, the world gets the best of everyone!!!